As the taxi pulled alongside the massive high-rise – which was actually the cruise ship – I became aware of a feeling not unlike indigestion behind my ribs. A wave of disappointment washed over me. Surely I should be feeling pure excitement?
Hmmm… This was a ghost feeling, albeit one whose roots I couldn’t really understand? And one that I certainly didn’t want right now? Like it or not I had to allow my mind to go there. I promised myself that I would find a quiet chair on deck and spend some time thinking… Once I convinced myself – and I have to keep my promise! – I was able to shake the feeling and get on with the day.
The ship is magnificent! It’s huge – the largest vessel in the Royal Caribbean fleet – and caters luxuriously to every whim of over 4,500 passengers. All the basics of your holiday are covered – including world class cuisine, a sit down dinner and pampering by your own waiters and waitresses, towels by the pool, snacks and coffees at a dozen different little cafes throughout the ship, dancing and entertainment and twice-daily room tidying. There are cruises within the cruise: that is groups of specialized cruises on this cruise ship at the same time – my own cruise is a dance cruise, with workshops teaching all kinds of ballroom dance every morning and with extra social dancing in the afternoons and at night – absolute heaven! Several days had gone by though – and several whole Caribbean Islands had passed – without my exploring them. There is just so much to do…
Of course these are still more of my ‘tendencies’ – the tendency to get so busy that I forget just to relax and enjoy myself… And the tendency to ‘need’ (not a real need at all!) to “work” rather than accept myself not working and allowing myself to ‘let go’. Today – and every day – is yet another chance to face my ghosts and sweeten this precious life.
The seasickness I’d worried about didn’t happen – yes I can feel the ship sway… Especially on the 11th and 14th floors where some of the dancing is. Apart from feeling drunk – and that fits right in here! – I feel just fine. I was also concerned that I might have forgotten how to dance… Which is largely true but really doesn’t seem to matter at all!
Woo-hoo! I’m on a cruise!!!